Seriously????

So last night was the humpteenth night of having ctxs. Seriously??? Cant I just get one night of going to bed and staying there?? I dont understand why they start up when I get in bed! Last night was a little bit different however, I started getting this sharp pain on the right side towards the top at work. I was uncomfortable sitting there at work, couldnt get comfy for nothing, and it just smarted like baby was pushing something up in there and had it stuck. It was time for me to call it a night, walked to the truck and that sharp pain got worse by the time i got home. I got inside and told Adam (who graciously waited up for me) to get the "bed buddy" my little seed filled bag that you throw in the mic and warm it up, somewhat like a heating pad. He asked what for and I sd for my gut and he sd, you are not putting that on him! lol Well, then you figure out how to get whatever it is out of where ever he has it stuck!!

I got ready for bed, hunched over the majority of the time and crawled in and then they started. For gosh sakes! I told Adam to feel my belly, you could feel the baby's butt, some parts, because it was so hard and stiff. He sd, I think your having ctxs, its all hard. So we tried pushing that butt down to move it and get it out of the way which did not help at all. The pain went from a constant stab to timable contractions. I tried rolling, turning, rubbing, and I would give them a good 4-5 on the pain scale. The worst so far this pg. After whinning and groaning he chimes in...go get the bed buddy and put it on your gut. LOL Funny he didnt want me doing that 1/2 hr ago! But now of course it was daddy's bed time and he wanted sleep and not messing w/ ctxs again for the 3rd or 4th night in a row.

So up we went to the kitchen, warmed up the bag, and timed them. 2-3 mins apart and they were not something I could just ignore. I woke daddy once again and sd, this may be one of those nights we have to go in. I was trying to think of where my things were that I was going to pack, because I have yet to do so. Although they would stop the ctxs and I wouldnt really need a bag I thought..... so then I turned to thinking, ok so do I call my mom? Wake Abbie and tell her to go sleep on Zach's floor? Wake up Abbie and have her hang out downstairs? I've got to get better prepared!

I did not want to go in. I knew as soon as I got Adam up, got in the truck and got signed in, the dang things would disappear and I would look like a fool in front of my co-workers. So, I decided to deal w/ them. I swayed, rocked, moved, did a lil dance, put the warmer on my back and then moved it to my belly. After a lil while FINALLY relief!

I am tempted to give the OB a call today, but it seems a bit pointless since 1. I am not having them now, 2. I go to the dr on Wed anyway, and 3. I really dont want to go spread um for the docs to check me and then them say...nawww your closed, yada yada and AGAIN look like an idiot that I dont know what im talking about or that no they werent ctxs and im just a wuss. This is baby #5 I am almost POSITIVE that I know what ctxs are, what they feel like, and so help me if I stay home because I dont want to go in, and I have to deliver this kid myself someone better be buying me something big and expensive for doing so!

So I will go about my day again, and if they start up tonight I am either going to just go up from work and get checked out before coming home, or wait a bit and then go in w/ adam after I get home. If they are coming this strong, and I go pretty quick when I get part way, I dont want to be here when it happens.

Im hoping we do not have a repeat again tonight, Im getting tired!!